KOME

寶貝妹妹，三月時妳離開，人生突然頓失意義也不知道怎麼前進，姊姊每天想著妳，哭著捨不得沒有妳的日子，墓碑上姊姊一筆一劃在妳身旁添加上了翅膀與環繞襯妳的花，寫下全家對妳最不捨的祝福，當時我總到處向神佛祈願，願妳不再墮入生老病死的輪迴之苦，能離苦得樂，但如還需修行再來找姊姊，姊姊一樣會把妳當小公主一樣疼愛；強打著精神好好為你安頓一切後事，重要的普渡法會幫妳誦經祈福⋯難熬的日子一直到了半年後，九月底時迎來了好消息，如碑文上所刻、神佛下所求，姊姊懷上了第一個孩子，是不是妳來與我們家續緣了呢？

To My Dearest Little Sister, KOME

My precious little sister,

You left us in March, and life suddenly felt meaningless. I didn’t know how to move forward without you. Every day, your big sister missed you, crying over the days we had to spend apart.

On your gravestone, I carefully drew wings beside you, stroke by stroke, and surrounded you with flowers. I left our family’s deepest love and blessings there, hoping you would feel them wherever you are.

I prayed to the gods and Buddhas, wishing you freedom from the endless cycle of birth, aging, illness, and death, and that you may find peace beyond all suffering. But if you still have a journey to fulfill, please come find your big sister again. I will always love and cherish you like my little princess.

I tried my best to stay strong and take care of everything for your farewell. The days without you were so hard, until a beautiful blessing came at the end of September, six months after you left.

Just as I had wished and prayed, I was expecting my first baby.

Could it be you, my little sister? Have you come back to our family to continue the bond we share?

I hope we will find each other again, in this life or the next.