Russel

If I could choose you once,
I would choose you in every lifetime.

If I could love you once,
I would love you in every universe.

Always you.
Always us.
Always.

Forever our little boy.
Forever our family.
Forever home.

Forever and beyond.
In this life and the next 🌌

With endless love,
Mama 🤍

You were loved every day you were here. You are loved every day you are missed. And you will be loved for all the days that are yet to come 🤍

Until we meet again, my sweetest baby.

In every universe, through every lifetime, and across every eternity.

No matter where you are,
no matter what form life takes,
no matter how many times the universe begins again, a part of my heart will always recognize you.

There is something that makes me feel that a part of you will always live on with us.

Perhaps to others,
it is just a name and a date.
But to us, they hold a story that means so much more.

Somehow,
a little piece of you will always live here.

This home will forever carry your name.

You may no longer be by our side,
but you will forever be a part of our family, our memories, and our home 🏡

And if there is one thing I wish you could know, it is that our love for you has never belonged to just one lifetime.

If there are a thousand lifetimes,
I hope we find each other in every single one.

If there are countless universes,
I hope that somehow, in each of them,
our paths cross again.

And if life gives us another chance to begin, I hope I get to be yours all over again, to love you, care for you,
and call you my little boy.

Because some souls are simply meant to find each other, and I believe yours will always find its way back to ours.

To my dearest baby R,
somewhere in Heaven..
8 November 2025 — 8 November 2026 🕊

Before I begin, bear with me,
my sweetest boy. This is going to be a long letter, because there are so many things my heart still wants to tell you, so many memories I wish I could relive, and so much love that could never fit into just a few words. I hope somehow, wherever you are, these words find their way to you.

Today marks one year since the day my world changed without you in it.

It is still so hard to believe that an entire year has passed. One year since the last time I could see you, hold you close,
feel your soft fur, and call your name.

Time continues to move forward, day after day, but a part of my heart still feels as though it is standing in that very moment.

You were never just a dog.
You were family.
You were a little soul who made an ordinary house feel like home.

You were part of my everyday routines,
my happiest moments, my quiet days,
and all those little things I never imagined
I would miss so much.

If I could turn back time, I would choose every single day with you all over again. Even the ordinary ones.

Especially the ordinary ones.

You were there through so many chapters of our lives. You grew alongside us, lived through countless days, and became a witness to our family's journey.

Eighteen years may seem like a lifetime, but somehow, no matter how much time we are given with someone we love,
it never feels like enough.